In honour of mental health awareness day yesterday, I felt compelled to write a blog post about this topic.
I want to speak on my own personal experience with dealing with mental health. I’ve always wanted to speak on this topic but I felt scared ( ironic right), to share that part of me that many family and close friends knew but not the world.
I used to suffer with anxiety and depression. Every sensation within my body froze up and the most simple things would be the most difficult, resulting to me having a panic attack. It was horrible as I never knew what anxiety/depression was or how I even ‘caught’ it. As an extrovert, I was always out there socialising and being the centre of everything around me. However, thats what appeared on the outside, on the inside I was breaking slowly & no-one could see.
I always had this idea in my head that crying/asking for help was a sign of weakness so I never would share what was in my head or I would do the opposite,I would share and then say I’m joking ( that was a regular thing for me) just to cover up the truth.
Until, one day it was too late. I shattered. I shattered into a million pieces. I had such a break down that I thought there was no way out of this.
It was very hard to express to my parents at first what was going on, however, they supported me through the ups and down and I am so thankful for their love and support.
Now I don’t want this to be a sad story because it really is not.
That day was the day I finally broke free!!
I did not let this powerful mind ( often silly mind) consume me, I was not letting it get the best out of me. Through the help & support of everyone & meditation, I can now say today, that I have transformed so much I don’t suffer with depression anymore and my anxiety has gotten to a point where doesn’t send me to melting point and I can actively change a thought before it engulfs me. Yes it took a long while but just remember
It is ok to speak out when you are feeling down. Its not a sign of weakness, infact its a sign of courage and strength. You are so much stronger than you even think. You have so much support that you cant even imagine & know that you are not alone.
Be Bold, Be Strong, Be you x